Thanksgiving

Having a very hard time finding reasons to be thankful this year. I am not sure why. I have every girl's ideal husband, one wonderful kitty, another shitty kitty who is the sweetest cat you could ask for and can't stay mad at, no matter how much poop she tracks, the sweetest guinea pig ever, and some really nice toys (Vespa, Fiat, and Geo, Apple iStuff).

But right now, I seem to be dwelling on the negative. Most people say, well you have your health, a job, a roof over your head, and food for your belly. Yes, I am still able to walk and breathe (mostly), but I am not "healthy". I have some fairly serious mental illness. I am so far beyond exhausted every day. I know, I know, you are all thinking quit yer bitchin' and do something about it! Well, that whole laziness and mental health and name change are kinda making it a lot harder than it should be.

Speaking of the name change, if you didn't know, I got married at the end of October. I guess it's pretty sad that I have yet to do a blog entry about it. After all it is supposed to be such a happy day. It all went smooth. We had a very nice honeymoon at the Mountain View Grand. I'll use the excuse of I was waiting for the professional photos from Samantha Ruth Photography (which btw, came out beautifully), but that's just an excuse. The name change has been a major issue for me. I know I should change my last name to his, however I just don't like it. I have tried for the insurance and the bank, but I am just not happy with it. It is definitely a source of friction. I guess it's just the growing pains of becoming an adult. As everyone says, I  need to grow up and deal with it. :/ I just don;t cope well with major changes.

I have a job. And a decent paying one at that. But I never feel appreciated there, I will be losing all the shifts I like at the end of the year, and the new schedule is not looking promising for replacement of those said shifts. I have to learn a route I don't care for to be able to get something for hours. I don't get the ADA shifts I used to to boost the paycheck. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't get so sleepy early in the morning and have to avoid shifts that start before 6am due to the sheer fear of having an accident.

I do have to admit I have a very nice roof over my head. I am thankful for that. I also have plenty of food. Ok, so that is half of the typical thankful items. I do love my vehicles, but those are just inanimate objects.

I am thankful for the troops who keep our country safe.